Q. Probally not the question you’re looking for, but how did it feel to get stabbed? What happened? What first aid did you receive? (ShibiStorm)
A. To be honest I didn’t know I got stabbed. I didn’t feel it. The actual stabbing cut the ligaments in my neck which weekend the structure. Then I was knocked down and hit my forehead on the ground. The first thing that happened was an immediate PING sound. I thought to myself “Oh I must be about to be knocked out,” but that never happened. Then I went to get up and couldn’t move anything at all. Then my friends picked my up (never do this with a neck injury) and drove me to the hospital. I was so convinced that I had just fallen that I actually got into an argument with the police officer who came and asked me who stabbed me. The first few months are really blurry. I was on a ton of medications. I remember a lot of anxiety attacks, particularly at night because I couldn’t move to get comfortable. Then months and months of physical rehab.
Q. Since your injury, have you found things you are passionate about that you were not previously? Have you been able to accomplish certain things you set out to do? (truebouta)
A. Yeah definitely. I’ve gotten really into science, philosophy, theology, physics, metaphysics… all kinds of random interesting subjects that I probably never would have gotten into if it weren’t for the injury. As for accomplishments, after my injury I decided to start college and got my degree in IT. I was pretty proud of that.
Q. Was the attacker caught? (paraphrased – squishysquishh)
A. So growing up I was friends with everyone; the nerds, the stoners, the cowboys, jocks, and the gangsters. For some reason I just seemed to click with everyone. While I was in the hospital a guy who I had been friends with, definitely what you would consider a gangster, (for context he’s currently serving a life sentence in prison) came to my hospital room. He told me he knew who had stabbed me, lifted up his shirt, flashed me a gun, and said “Give me the word and I’ll take care of it.” I told him “no, that’s not what I wanted.” and that was the end of it. I’ve been told by a few other people that they knew who the guy was, but there were never any arrests made or anything like that. I have forgiven him though, and wish no ill will.
Q. Could you expand on your sporadic movements and sensations? How long did it take before you started feeling and moving, and what therapies have you done that led to these results? (laserfazer)
A. So yeah. This is a bit hard to explain unless you’ve experienced it. I’ll do my best. There are times when I feel… sort of an energy build up in my stomach, or legs, or hands. When I feel that build up, say in my stomach, I’ll try to do a sit up. My stomach flexes super hard and I can usually get my head and shoulders off the bed on the first try. The second try it’ll be a little weaker, and so on. Usually I can get 4-5 flexes off before things shut down. The sensation is pretty consistent, I guess the sporadic-ness of it is just how much sensation there is. Sometimes I’ll have about 60% sensation in my right leg, sometimes 30%.
The amount of time it’s taken for everything is different, and it’s so gradual that I couldn’t tell you exactly how long it took. The movement in my biceps and upper forearms took a few months, the rest has been accomplished over years.
I’ve used all kinds of things to try to stimulate the nerves in my body. Electrodes, vibrating massagers, heat & cold stimulation. There are 2 things that I would give the most credit to though, different types of supplements, and meditation. I can make a list of different supplements I’ve used if anyone’s interested. The meditation is a bit… unexplainable (to me at least) though. A lot of times if I’m having trouble I can zone out, put myself in a trance like state, and then it’s like for a brief instance my body and mind are in sync and I can move.